Write a list of the things you love about yourself.
I chose this one because I know I can bring myself down a lot. I’m trying to be better about that. I have an inspirational muse behind that. She knows who she is.
- I love my sense of humor. Not everybody gets it. Sometimes that gets a little disappointing, but I still love it.
- I love my compassion. Anything I set out to do, I put my all into. Romance, friendship, reading. I could go on.
- Loyal. I am always loyal to those I care about. Sometimes to a fault.
- My eyes. One of my best features is my eyes. I feel like they are very expressive. I’d like to think they can express things I am sometimes unable to with my voice.
- My singing voice. I’m still too shy to sing in public, but I have a decent voice. I wouldn’t say that I could have ever been a star. I wouldn’t ever be able to perform in a crowd. I believe I can carry a tune though.
I’d love to hear five things you love about yourself!
Write A Love Letter
I never thought that I was meant for true happiness. I thought I was meant to go through the motions. Don’t get me wrong. I was happy. I have had the opportunity to be with some amazing people in my life. They made me happy and the time that I spent with them was meaningful. The problem is that I always knew something was missing. I always felt like I wasn’t giving my all.
To say that I fell for you from the moment I saw you wouldn’t be the truth. I felt a connection. I won’t lie. It just took me a long time to fully piece things together. There were times I found myself nervous and giddy around you. I never felt that before. It scared me. I found myself openly and very obviously flirting with you. I felt like an idiot. Sometimes it made me feel like you thought I was an idiot!
Things didn’t really fully hit me until one night. I felt desire from a single touch. I didn’t know how to react. My whole body locked up. I wanted to run away. I wanted to kiss you. So much. I wanted to just kiss you and get lost in you. All I knew is that I would never go back to how things were for me. I could never pretend to be happy with the comfortable life I was leading.
You turned my entire world upside down. You made me hope for things that I never thought I was meant to experience. You make me want to be a better person. You make me hope and dream. I never thought I would be able to be so open and vocal. About anything. I never thought I would be able to be myself with someone.
I still have my fears and insecurities. It’s a battle I will have to work on every day. You are worth fighting that battle for. I grow closer to you every single day we talk. You amaze me. You humble me. You inspire me. I know that I could fall in love with you if I just let go and let be.
What does unconditional love look like for you?
For me, unconditional love is about loving the other person despite everything. It’s being able to accept them for who they are and not expecting them to be something else. It’s being able to sacrifice everything for them without thinking twice. It’s trusting them with your entire life whole heartedly without fear. Unconditional love says in the name that it’s without condition. You love them for who they are and you wouldn’t have them any other way.
Tell about the last time you cried.
The last time I cried was in Savannah. Most of my life, I have went through the motions where certain things are concerned. I observed how couples were and I mirrored it so to speak. I thought something was wrong with me. I thought many horrible thoughts about myself growing up. Things changed for me. I won’t get into the details, but I found that I’m not as emotionally numb as I thought I was. I can feel certain things. So, my last night there I cried. Hard. I cried for finally experiencing something I thought I’d never get to. I cried for losing that moment so quickly. I cried because my whole world was changed forever and there was nothing I could do about it. I just cried. Once I was done, I realized it was the first time I truly cried since my sister died. I feel like this is the first step to recovery. It’s also the first step to finding me and what my heart desires.
Writing Prompt: What would you most like to do for someone else if you had the money in time.
Note: I’m choosing four people here. I’m not including names. With the exception of “Mom”.
For Mom: I would pay back all my debt to her. I would also buy her her dream home and pay to have it set up for her just the way she wants it. I’d have an art studio included in the house for her.
For My Fiance: I would have a game room set up for him. I’d have all the consoles he wants and all the games he wants put in there for him. If he chooses to try doing a gaming blog, I will get him all the equipment he needs for it.
Empath Friend: I would try to set her up a room where she can just go and be by herself completely. Where she can just unwind and not feel like she’s having to take care of the world. She and I both forget to put our own personal needs first. She’s always looking after mine. I feel like that would help her look after her own as well.
Author Friend: I would make sure that she has all the material she needs to promote her book and write future books. Anything she needed to make her happy and make her dreams come true. She’s so creative that it’s inspirational. I hope to have her dedication one day.
Writing Prompt: If you could travel anywhere you have never been, where would you go?
At one point, this would have been a hard one for me. I wanted to travel the world. I wanted to take photographs of all of the beauty in the world so that I can hold on tight to it during the dark times. I still want that, but this question isn’t as hard for me as it once was.
I would want to go to Iceland. It seems like such a beautiful and peaceful place to be. I’m sure that the weather would be so cold. To me, that would be an excuse to stay in and read! I don’t know as much about Iceland as I should, but the things I know make me feel like I would feel at home there.
Writing Prompt: What advice do you need to give yourself today?
That everything is going to be okay. That things may seem overwhelming now, but they won’t always be. Sometimes it’s hard to see the bigger picture because we’re stuck in the moment we’re in now. It does get better. We just have to keep pushing through. We just have to keep working. Sometimes, I forget that. Sometimes I need to remind myself of this instead of letting my anxiety let me drown.
Writing Prompt: Would you rather live in the beach or in the mountains?
Answer: In the mountains.
Beaches are beautiful. I will never deny that. I’ve never felt comfortable on a beach for long periods of time. It’s okay for brief time periods. Especially when I’m inspired to take a million pictures of the beautiful scenery. Sometimes observing the beach scene is just beautiful. It leaves me full of inspiration. I think I would lose that inspiration if I lived on a beach.
The mountains are peaceful and calm. I feel like I would be so productive there. Also, there are places in mountain areas that are near lakes. It’s not as good as an ocean some would say, but it’s very peaceful. At least to me it is. I enjoy peace and quiet for the most part. I’m an ambivert, but I tend to lean more towards the introverted aspect of that.
My aunt and that side of the family have a beautiful lake house on the mountains in North Georgia. It’s so beautiful. I dream I will have that one day.
Writing Prompt: Write about something you want to remember.
I spent a lot of time thinking about this. I think I may have even been over thinking it quite frankly. It’s hard to think of just one thing I want to remember. There are too many beautiful memories for me to want to remember just one thing. The day I graduated. My 21st birthday. My first kiss.
Then I realized that I was thinking too narrowly. I don’t have to choose a specific memory. I can do something else. Something that covers a broad variety of memories.
I want to remember happiness. I want to remember every single time I feel it. I want to be able to pull it around me like a cloak when I’m not feeling so happy.
I want to be able to share that happiness with others. Especially when they are down. I want to help them get the smile back on their face. Put hope back in their hearts.
I want to lock all of my happy memories into the feeling of happiness so that I can pull them out whenever I want to remember them. Happiness will be the best thing I could ever remember.
Writing prompt: Share Three Positive Thoughts
- Somebody will always love you unconditionally. People turn against you. It’s life. However, there will always be at least one person who will always have your back no matter what. They will always care about what’s going on with you.
- It’s okay to not be perfect. There’s always going to be things that we are strong in and things that we are weak in. That’s okay. It’s what makes us human.
- Be authentically you. You will always find happiness in life as long as you are the best you that you can possibly be. Never try to be what you think others want you to be.